Get it? I personally dont.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
The wound
where I got stung probably a decade or so ago
ripped open again.
I think
I need to go see kelly
to get it heal.
But probably
it will never heal
in time for this game.
Is it possible that what happened to Russell,
happen to me too?
I know it cant and it must'nt
but I secretly want it to.
What on earth am I talking about?
I have no idea too!
Ha!
< 10:50 PM >
A day of value creation.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
another brilliant day spent and i am glad that i went for the cic training and the youth concert(: it was just a blast and im so happy to meet my fellow comrades like daddy siyi and twin xingyi and crazy minxue who drew the above for me(: kathy's testimonial is super inspiring and after listening to her, i feel that what im going through is nothing. if she can do it, so can it! just like how yen can cook and so can you! okay no link. haha. i am really glad that found my focus and motivation again. i have to win and score a victory this A levels !
the youth concert was really really brilliant! super high and we were even more crazy becuase of people like hysen and minxue! haha! fei mao! haha. yutong, annie, ben hum were awesome! love yutong's voice ttm! orange cove were just simply woolala! and sean you got a brilliant great voice okay! and secretly i think daddy alvin is super cool and charismatic! (i just realise i got a lot of daddys. okay actually two plus a real one!) sydc were just so vibrant and full of energy(: and to the pianist and the violinist who played cheeze fries, you two are just so great! and i think violinist are just so cool! okay enough for now and im going to mug hard now! off i go!
i really wish that you can attend the next concert with me and the DIAL lecture too. i'll chant for that. woosh!
< 11:37 PM >
A winding road travelled.
Friday, October 16, 2009
i went on a roller coaster ride this week and i am glad that i ended it off on a good note. thank you mr tong. thank you for making the effort and sticking to your belief which will benefit me even more despite influences from the rest. thank you mr pek. its time to learn and start moving on. like what shushu said, after being aware of the issue, now its about how you go about overcoming it and whether you have the courage and faith to do. and it is only by doing so, will you improve and really grow.
yes this is it. i will need a hell lot of time for it but i will do it. i promise you.
< 11:55 PM >
Sunday, October 11, 2009
friday marked the last day of school, though there is still post prelim prog going on. haha.
i just wanna say a big THANK YOU to everyone who has made life in vj so brilliant! in particular, to my classmates from v11 and s41 and the wushu people! of course not forgetting the teachers(: those memories are just so hard to be replaced and they will be cherished and remembered! what made farewell even more memorable was the last 15-20 mins of geog lecture on thurs.
to mr josef, i could really feel for you when you typed the first paragraph. not being able to realise one's dream is already very saddening. what made it worst was the fact that you are still so passionate about your dream that you will twig and turn activities and actions to make you feel like you are living your dream. the need to imagine that you are living it, the need to delude yourself and escape from reality, despite it being really fake; it just makes one's heat shatter. its really not easy for you to share your dream with us and i really really appreciate it that you did. you touched so many lives in the lt during that last 15mins as evident from all the sniffing and tearing.
'teachers are there to help students develop themselves and realise their potential.'
'as you grow older, you should choose something that you are competent and passionate in.'
i'll remember them. thank you mr josef.
i have to do some self reflection about my character and behaviour. i made a fool of myself so many times last week and made pople around me upset and disappointed. in particular, i hope that things will be fine between me and the person in blue in my screen saver because it really sucks when i saw you the other day and i dint dare to talk to you and we dint even say hi.
i enjoyed the skyline at the rooftop and i think it will look even more spectacular under the moonlight. in the meantime, its back to books and more studying because theres barely one month left! jiayous peeps!
< 12:35 AM >
a brand new day. a brand new stage.
Sunday, October 04, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF(:
im 18 le! gosh! haha and i really enjoyed this birthday loads, from the 'surprise' birthday celeb till the actual day itsself! all the well wishes and gifts! the bag, the necklace, diary, and notepad! thanks so much people(: i really appreciate it loads! feel so bleassed to have so many good friends around me(: kudos to june in particular! bff(: haha! and on a side note, everyone's birthday notes this year seem to have a common theme for some funny reasons! lol.
ytd was a good day cause it was shopping day! bought so many nice stuff(: and shopped at zara for the first time with a 40 bucks coat and a top in return!(: then went for bysi's sales and bought a dress and bag! so happy(: haha. went to this super nice place for lunch! kudos to daddy for that. haha.
okay now to the not so happy stuff. results. really disappointed and worried with my grades now. i gotta get over them asap and work harder so that i can make it big during As! yes! i must and so must everybody okay!(: and may loo! really appreciate the chat online that day! got everything out and im so relieved now. i will learn to put it aside and smile! hope that i will be able to pull through it!(:
oh and i talked to der online that day! it was really nice being able to talk to him like that again. haha. and its really cool cause we both are rather similar in some ways! he got into pharmacy in nus back then and almost went to uk to further his studies but dint cause of the cost. transferred to mse. haha. and he told me thats the only engineering course with the least phy! haha. maybe i will apply for that for plan B. haha!
be strong and set your priorities right. no point dwelling into it and get yourself so upset when others dont even bother about it. smile everyday and never estimate the power of it. dont give up and use faith to see things instead of your naked eye. and stop committing the affective fallacy!
yes! jiayous puen! jiayous to everyone! 36 more days to the beginning of it! woosh!
< 1:07 PM >
