its coming.
3 more days to official beginning.
5 more days to my first.
877.
all the way people!

tomorrow will decide it all. whether it will take a steep and irreversible turn or it will allow me to pull through. in any case, i am grateful to gohonzon for allowing me pull through the past one week odd pretty smoothly.

11. one one. eleven. what a special number. especially for this very day, the 29th.



school is starting tomorrow. its gonna be back to the hectic busy life. hope i will be able to pull through another term, saying that i did it. starting the term off with h3 test isnt exactly the best way cause im dead. super clueless about whats going on=/ wish me luck!

you will not be my first choice but my only choice. its the case before, now and forever no matter what happened.





放了爱
郭美美

你指向远方 爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光 钻进你的胸膛
但那不是感动 是 泪无法储藏

把美梦锁上 以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光空中翱翔
还得乔装安份 靠在你的肩膀

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 该怎么生活
放了爱

你说你喜欢 我笑得开朗
你越温柔 我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你 我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福 何必要模仿
心不在何苦 留躯壳在身旁
加满自由 我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 该怎么生活
放了爱 会明白
有种拥有 叫做放手

我的心 为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错

放了爱 为了爱
这不是我 想要的生活
放了爱 你会明白
有种拥有 叫做放手
放了爱



training was just atrocious today. its really disheartening with comp nearing nearing so badly. haix. oh wells. buck up girls(: we shall make the impossible possible alright(:

i love perfect cut 2(: super nice show(:

i feel for kelly. i know how badly she just wanted her phone to ring. i know.



a girl told this guy, "could you speak slower and think before you speak? because words arent suppose to hurt others; instead they should be used to say i love you."

well said(:



its now no longer a semicolon. its a fullstop. just barely an hour, and a change. just like how its barely a day and how its barely a year.

raindrops keep fallin' on my head
and just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
nothin' seems to fit
those raindrops are fallin' on my head,
they keep fallin'



the dates are out.
3rd of april. 13 competitors.
8th of april. 8 competitors.
15th of april. 8 competitors.

15 more days.
4 more trainings.
4 events.
1 common goal.

jiayous puen!
jiayous vj wushu team!
we shall shine brightly like we always do(:



its a new chapter of my life. a new beginning to it.
its the price that i have to pay because of the mistake.
and i hope this is all that i have to pay for it; just a new beginning to a new life and nothing else to it.
i cant afford anything more than it.



puen has to learn to be strong and courageous.
she mustn't let history repeat itself again.
she gotta make it this time.
she has to.

be strong puen. be strong.



indeed today is the friday the 13th!

i need my health restore back to its tip top condition! screams!



HI WORLD!

im back! haha. was having cts over the past week. i shant comment on it so yup. haha! and im suppose to be in school for vog now but i aint cause i got an mc. decided to be good and rest for trng later. woooo trng((:

the last two weeks were bad. had fever for like almost every night? and these bugs jus bug me like mad. they easily make me burn till like 38.8degrees every night=( so i have to race with time, finish up my revision before like 8 plus or 9 and they attack me, to ban me from studying! so i practically turn in at about 9 for the past two weeks or so! its rather annoying because i cant finish my revision!

went to the doc ytd and as predicted, blood test=/ i remember the last time that i took a blood test, i practically started crying once i entered the room, all the way till the end. i was crying so badly till i didnt know that the needle went in and came out=/ yeah i know its dumb but i was p5 then only. haha. so i went in this time, the lady was being nice by talking to me and stuff but obviously it didnt help. haha. but it wasnt as bad as i thought. jus that i was stunned when i saw the bottle of blood on the table after that. it really freaked me out for some reason. haha!

got my test and went back to the doc. no dengue nothing(: just a little anemic=/ haha!

got back my A level chinese(: thankfully, i got my A(: my one year effort really paid off(:

next week is gonna be a happening week too. trng, h3 lessons, and many many other stuff! gotta be back to my books soon because h3 test is on the first day of school and i hav a stack of tutorials to catch up=/ and comp is jus 2 weeks away!!!!! omt!!! im so so dead! i need to be fit and be on form!! screams!! and i am suppose to be writing my sponsorship letter before going out and it is so late already=S double screams!!

a new realisation. i need to learn to control my emotions. and to you two! thank you for being there with me for the whole of last week! without you two, probably i would really have jus.... (you two know)! haha! love you two loads!

am i over dependent on you?

LIKE A KNIFE
SECONDHAND SERENADE

I did a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
'Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasted away

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life.