'We watched the seasons pull up it's stake,
catch the last weekend of the last week,
another sun silk season fades away.
You have stolen my heart, you have stolen my heart.'

indeed this season esp the last two weeks was just crazy
but im glad we pull through and were stronger than before.
i know i am tactless with my words,
but i dont mean it in the bad ways.
im sorry for causing so much worries for you.
i really am.

im really lost.
i dont know much.
i dont know how long i can last going on like this.
both sides of my hands are flesh;
i dont want to hurt any side but neither can i just leave things like that cause there will be one side that i definitely going to get hurt.
i want to please and get both sides but it will involve a lot of hard work since i let both sides down so many times before.

i will need the courage,
the wisdom to do the apt thing
and achieve final victory.
and i definitely victory is mine.
and daimoku is the key.