life is really filled with ups and downs; its a never ending struggle and challenge. although one might be settled today, others, which seemed to be alright, will go haywire and pose problems to you. just when you are about to be happy that one problem is solved or at least an improvement is observed, another thing, which sometimes you may take for granted for, will start to have problems and make you go crazy. i guess thats life. equilibrium can never be reached or else the weakness inherent in all humans will start to come to play; people will start to be complacent and start to regress. will need a higher life condition to fight them all and gain final victory in all(:

i know you have been giving in to me like nobody's business, forgiving me every time i let you down. i know you are tired of all my rubbish and nonsense; i myself am too. looking at the whole of today and that message you sent, i really woke up and broke down once again. i dont want to let you down anymore. i have been trying not to but the results arent showing. give me another chance to let me prove to you, myself and the rest that a chance is possible. and once again, im sorry. i really am.