I dont know what I am actually thinking. Its coming back again. Crap.











The wound
where I got stung probably a decade or so ago
ripped open again.

I think
I need to go see kelly
to get it heal.

But probably
it will never heal
in time for this game.

Is it possible that what happened to Russell,
happen to me too?

I know it cant and it must'nt
but I secretly want it to.

What on earth am I talking about?
I have no idea too!
Ha!




another brilliant day spent and i am glad that i went for the cic training and the youth concert(: it was just a blast and im so happy to meet my fellow comrades like daddy siyi and twin xingyi and crazy minxue who drew the above for me(: kathy's testimonial is super inspiring and after listening to her, i feel that what im going through is nothing. if she can do it, so can it! just like how yen can cook and so can you! okay no link. haha. i am really glad that found my focus and motivation again. i have to win and score a victory this A levels !

the youth concert was really really brilliant! super high and we were even more crazy becuase of people like hysen and minxue! haha! fei mao! haha. yutong, annie, ben hum were awesome! love yutong's voice ttm! orange cove were just simply woolala! and sean you got a brilliant great voice okay! and secretly i think daddy alvin is super cool and charismatic! (i just realise i got a lot of daddys. okay actually two plus a real one!) sydc were just so vibrant and full of energy(: and to the pianist and the violinist who played cheeze fries, you two are just so great! and i think violinist are just so cool! okay enough for now and im going to mug hard now! off i go!

i really wish that you can attend the next concert with me and the DIAL lecture too. i'll chant for that. woosh!



i went on a roller coaster ride this week and i am glad that i ended it off on a good note. thank you mr tong. thank you for making the effort and sticking to your belief which will benefit me even more despite influences from the rest. thank you mr pek. its time to learn and start moving on. like what shushu said, after being aware of the issue, now its about how you go about overcoming it and whether you have the courage and faith to do. and it is only by doing so, will you improve and really grow.

yes this is it. i will need a hell lot of time for it but i will do it. i promise you.